okay…
so I got two thyrogen shots back in April as part of the 1st anniversary “test” to see if there were any thyroid cells left… the test came back positive… there are cells left…
step two of that is another round of thyrogen shots (did I mention that these shots cost my insurance company $1,000 each!!) and then a week ago thursday I went to the hospital to the Nuclear Meds department — and swallowed a capsule of radiated iodine…
This is to kill/show where the leftover cells are… it meant that there was radiation in my system… enough that I had to be in quarantine… not be around people, not handle my cats, not use regular silverware — disposable everything… lots of rules about washing hands etc. and then washing out the sink after… etc. etc. etc. a week’s worth of not-fun-ness.
I survived… (this helped) cheer me up…
and Monday I go in the morning for an uber-fun 90 minute full body scan… yayyy can’t wait for that.
(man my blog entries are getting sarcastic!!!)
So in the meantime I’m enjoying what I’m coming to call “thyrogen brain” — it could be similarly compared to what some women call “pregnancy brain” … the cloudy-unable-to-put-thoughts-together-quickly-and-dam-it’s-frustrating thing… I think I may have mentioned this before but when you go from being pretty intelligent and coherent and able to carry on conversations and plan something and even WRITE something… (you think I’m kidding?? go back through my blog entries…. you’ll see a difference) …it is terribly frustrating and makes you feel stupid and sad and angry and betrayed by your brain.
and it screws with your sleep schedule again too… just when you were about to be back in a somewhat normal (going to bed at 11:30 getting up at 8/8:30) routine… you’re back to the going to bed at 2/2:30/3am getting up at 10:30/11/11:30am thing… which really sucks because you still feel tired pretty much all day…
(thus ends the health whinging hooray!!)
Archive for the ‘whinge’ Category
this is my brain….. this is my brain on thyrogen…. any questions?
Saturday, June 21st, 2008want to know what burns me up?
Saturday, January 27th, 2007when I find a really interesting thing to blog about and then SOMEONE ELSE who will NOT remain nameless (ANDREW PETER HELSBY the SWINE) goes and beats me to blogging about it.
I was going to blog about this interesting book that I found out about (from a scrapper’s blog that I read) called No one cares what you had for lunch by Margaret Mason
She’s written in a very readable style and broken the book up into three sections — 15 minutes, 30 minutes and 1 hr +…. so that if you only have 15 minutes to sit and blog you can take one of the ideas from that first section and run with it, or if you have 30 mins etc. She has really gotten me to think about why I am posting… and even more so about *what* I am actually posting… In the last section of the book she’s quite good about encouraging the inner writer in all of us to be stretched and to be intentional in what we write — otherwise the internet is going to be (and perhaps is already?) flooded with things that aren’t important… or even entertaining.
I started my blog so that friends and family could keep an eye out and see what I’ve been up to and what’s going on in my life — but as you will notice… there have been large gaps in my posts — and some of that is because this blog has become a bit more than just a newsy update. I have wanted it to be something deeper — more of a journal of what I’m feeling etc. — but much of the things that have been happening in the gaps are too personal to post on here… those things belong in a journal where they are mine alone.
That is one thing that she didn’t really address in the book — the privacy issue — one of the blogs that she points you to (she gives several examples throughout the book) is a blog about sharing yourself completely, awkward warts and all. I could never do that. She never touched upon how people feel secret power to be cruel and make comments they would never in a million years have said aloud to another person — all because they are behind the shield of a monitor, possibly thousands of miles away.
So for now I will continue to plod on — and if/when you see gaps — email me — sometimes I need to be asked in order to share what kinds of things are going on in my heart.
I hate to clean
Wednesday, August 30th, 2006I know there are people out there who find cleaning therapeutic and relaxing and even enjoyable….
I, however, am NOT one of them.
Then on top of that, the vaccuum cleaner (which has already been returned/exchanged for a new one!!) is broken again. So now not only do I have to gear up motivation to clean, I have to drag my bum and my broken vacc to the store to return it and then get up the motivation again to clean…
2004 — Year of the Breakdown
Wednesday, January 7th, 2004theme music
that is the theme music for the start of this year– only when you get to the first set of Bah-BAHHHS imagine the sound instead of my car breaking down… and when you get to the second set, imagine Andy’s car breaking down… and the final big honkin’ BAH-BAHHHHHHHHHs imagine ME breaking down!
That’s the kind of start to the year we’ve had.
This blog was meant to start New Year’s Day, but as above, we had a few other things to take care of first.