Still in a bit of a funk...

I'm still in my funk -- feeling kind of lonely and needing some space.

Yesterday morning didn't help much either -- we went back to the church we went to two weeks ago and before we thought that the weird things were just kind of one-offs or something... the "worship leader" being a bit overdramatic.... the pastor reading his sermon a bit like he was conducting a business meeting (which we totally thought it was because he said at the beginning to the visitors that this sermon was more of a family meeting etc.) ...

there were other things, people weren't overly friendly (it is a HUGE church -- they get over 800 every sunday between the two services), I didn't see anyone our age, the seats are like movie theater seats -- and the ones in the middle of the main room are aimed so that you have to look up at the screen -- if you look at the actual pastor, you get a major neckache! *she says rubbing neck*

anyhow, we just became convinced that it wasn't for us -- we didn't think it was too bad after the first visit, but this one is way too big and anonymous. We need something smaller.

and I need some friends. Andy can survive with just geocaching and me and his computers.... but I need people to talk to and hang out with and laugh with and to go and do things with.

but I'm hanging in there... I know it takes time... doesn't make it any easier though.

Posted by kristen at May 23, 2005 1:24 PM