Situation Normal.... All Filled Up....
A couple of weeks ago, I was having some pretty bad days in a row. Work was changing, and emotions were flying low and hormones were in a frenzy (no I'm not pregnant!). Anyhow, all of those things put together make for a pretty stressed out Kristen.
But then I got to the plateau point -- the point where it's as though I'm standing on the plateau, looking down over my life, separated from emotions, from the stress, and I can see it for what it really is -- a great life.
Every once in a while you get these moments -- sometimes it is after a jolt (car accident, near-death experience, or even when someone close to you dies) and even for the briefest of moments, your eyes are opened wide and you realize how blessed you are.
So I'm trying to keep hold of that perspective now. Work is about to head in a more stressful direction -- my boss is going on a two week vacation and then shortly thereafter will be delivering her first child -- hence will be off work from that point until just before/just after Christmas.
Here's the thing -- they have created a new position at our store -- an assistant manager's job. A new title, a small (VERY small) raise, a large (VERY LARGE) increase in responsibility doing much of what I am doing right now. At first I didn't really think it would be for me, because I didn't really want to work full time, and I wanted to teach more classes. Now that I'm working a bunch, I'm doing fine (a little tired because my shifts are all over the place, closing one night, opening early the next day etc.) so I thought, Hmmmm -- I don't really want to go for it. Let others go for it.
The interviews were scheduled for last thursday -- but got postponed... to Wednesday of this week....
Hm.... now I'm re-thinking it...
So yesterday morning I went in early and laid my cards on the table with my boss and asked her all kinds of questions about the job.
From her answers, and knowing myself -- I would feel weird if I didn't try for it. I might always be thinking the what-ifs...
So I have thrown my hat into the ring -- and have gotten myself an invitation to an interview.... and apparently made my boss's decision 80% more difficult than it was already going to be, and it was already going to be extremely difficult!!
Interviews at 2pm tomorrow.
Either way, I will be okay with it -- because I'll know that I tried and if they choose someone else, there may be other chances later on for promotion, at least I got the experience from interviewing, and I presume that if I don't get the job, they'll let me know why not, where I have room for improvement etc.
Good to hear that things are on a bit more of an even keel for you now.
Glad to see you've gone for the job. However it turns out, you'd have been kicking yourself if you hadn't. Just try and rest in the knowledge that it is all in Gods hands and that he'll give you the strength to do whatever he puts before you (but you've probably heard that from lot's of people already).
Personally, I think you'll get it coz you rock! ;)
Posted by: Paul at August 9, 2006 3:16 PMso did you get it?
Posted by: Anna at August 13, 2006 8:20 PM