sorry about the huge long explanation folks -- but I seriously needed to get that off my chest.
I'm feeling a bit like a loser for having to do that -- but I realize that if I had kept on with it... it probably would have made me lose my eyesight quicker and would have eventually put me off stitching entirely -- it had begun to become a chore...
and when you find something that you truly treasure and adore becoming a chore... you need to do something about it!
The fabric will not go to waste... it can be cut (I will again keep the middle part just as I have the other times I went wrong) and will be used for other projects.
On a completely different note -- I am at last finishing Mia's scrapbook of "Things I Love" -- and in just typing that just then I realized that once Mom & Dad take that with them to Minnesota to give it to Bri & Ali & Mia.... there will be another addition to the family (Ali is due to have her second baby by the end of January) -- and the book will need an update. (insane laugh here)
There goes that sense of accomplishment right out the window.... *sigh* oh well!!