Ok so I got wrapped up in story telling -- lol -- that happens to me a lot. What I originally sat down (an hour ago) to blog about was what I've been going through physically since the surgery.
The surgery was 10 weeks ago -- and I never really knew what to expect from the beginning. I knew they had to take it, and I'm glad they did (especially since there was a little teeny bit of cancer in there) and I'm thankful for being able to breathe better (especially at night)... but o my word I am really struggling here.
There's just not much for describing how it feels to have to take a nap after unloading the dishwasher or going to the grocery store. You feel very fragile and feeble and for a 34 year old girl, that is devastating. I'm supposed to be in part of the prime of my life and I feel like I'm so weak and have NO confidence in anything. I have been doubting my strength, my self-esteem, my husband's love for me, everything. It has been awful. I have never felt like this before.
On top of all of that good fun, I have been having muscle issues -- basically I get charlie-horses but I also get cramping in the muscles in my back and arm and neck and everywhere... especially at night when I toss and turn, I would roll over and suddenly be in agony as all the muscles in my lower back just seize up.
I talked to my uncle about this (he's an endocrinologist) and he asked me how much calcium and vitamin D am I taking... and originally when in my follow up appointment with the surgeon, he mentioned for me to take a calcium supplement for a few weeks, and then "wean myself off of it after that"... well according to my uncle, this calcium supplement is now part of my life forever... and not only that, but I was only taking 1 tablet a day (they are these really enormous horse pills!!) -- my uncle said I'm supposed to be taking FOUR of these horse pills a day to get the right amount.
So I went out and found a double-dose horse pill so I only have to take two a day, but still... o my word.
In other fun medical news in my life, I have started a new med which will make me feel nauseous for the first week or so while my body gets used to it.
My wise words of advice for you all? Don't get older... it stinks.
Glad that you are making a steady recovery - although sorry it is so rotten at the moment. Thinking of you :)
Posted by: Danny at July 16, 2007 8:20 AMHey girlie,
it was good to finally catch up with your highs and lows - miss you! Praying for more 'ups' xx
Posted by: Anna at July 19, 2007 6:44 AM