I'm still in my funk -- feeling kind of lonely and needing some space.
Yesterday morning didn't help much either -- we went back to the church we went to two weeks ago and before we thought that the weird things were just kind of one-offs or something... the "worship leader" being a bit overdramatic.... the pastor reading his sermon a bit like he was conducting a business meeting (which we totally thought it was because he said at the beginning to the visitors that this sermon was more of a family meeting etc.) ...
there were other things, people weren't overly friendly (it is a HUGE church -- they get over 800 every sunday between the two services), I didn't see anyone our age, the seats are like movie theater seats -- and the ones in the middle of the main room are aimed so that you have to look up at the screen -- if you look at the actual pastor, you get a major neckache! *she says rubbing neck*
anyhow, we just became convinced that it wasn't for us -- we didn't think it was too bad after the first visit, but this one is way too big and anonymous. We need something smaller.
and I need some friends. Andy can survive with just geocaching and me and his computers.... but I need people to talk to and hang out with and laugh with and to go and do things with.
but I'm hanging in there... I know it takes time... doesn't make it any easier though.
this article on yahoo talks about downloading brains into machines (like airplanes!) to help them be smarter and to prevent accidents/crashes etc...
Have these people never seen Terminal Velocity or any other film in which AI is used in a machine (or house!) and it TURNS AGAINST the humans and tries to kill them all!!?!!?!?!?!
Good grief.
OH WAIT -- I should have known.... it's the head of "Futurology" at BT... now it makes perfect sense.... bunch of dafties.
I keep hearing this song on the radio -- Unwell by a group called Matchbox Twenty. It's got a great sing-along quality, and keeps sticking in my head. I thought it almost might be a good theme song for how I feel at the moment (a bit lost -- hopeful for our future and excited about being here and yet feeling a sense of loss for what (more importantly who) we left behind -- I'm missing my friends and church family.
So I went and Googled Matchbox Twenty Unwell lyrics and came up with them, and they don't exactly fit... *grin*
UNWELL
All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
Feeling like I’m headed for a breakdown
And I don’t know why
[chorus]
But I’m not crazy, I’m just a little unwell
I know right now you can’t tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you’ll see
A different side of me
I’m not crazy, I’m just a little impaired
I know right now you don’t care
But soon enough you’re gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me
I’m talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they’ve all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I’ve lost my mind
[chorus]
But I’m not crazy, I’m just a little unwell
I know right now you can’t tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you’ll see
A different side of me
I’m not crazy, I’m just a little impaired
I know right now you don’t care
But soon enough you’re gonna think of me
And how I used to be
I’ve been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they’ll come to get me
Yeah, they’re taking me away
[chorus]
But I’m not crazy, I’m just a little unwell
I know right now you can’t tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you’ll see
A different side of me
I’m not crazy, I’m just a little impaired
I know right now you don’t care
But soon enough you’re gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I’m just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
I’m just a little unwell
The song kind of embodies the part that I'm feeling about not feeling myself at the moment (you can ask Andrew -- I'm a right grumpy soandso at the minute!), and also how this feeling isn't me going crazy, it's just temporary (or so I'm hoping and praying!!!!!).
go to Yahoo Games and find the game called
Alchemy...
it's very addictive and very distracting -- my brother David introduced me to it, and at first I had no idea what he was trying to do, but I have since figured it out and am rather addicted. But now my eyes are crossing -- to off to bed with me!
Today is Andy's sister Ruth's birthday!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR RUTH!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
And many morrrrrrrre!
no, that doesn't mean that we're going to live there!
We've joined up as an Individual Select membership -- which means it's in my name, and I am allowed to bring one unnamed person with me free anytime I want to go to the Zoo (I get in free too!). And if/when we have kids, they'd be covered under this free too. For the price of us going to the Zoo 3 times, we became members -- and we get free parking (saving $3 each time) and 10% off any purchases in the shops!!
Bargain!!
So I can now go to the Zoo anytime I want and not have to spend a dime!!
The Zoo was fantastic -- lots of really cool animals, and since it was warm but not dreadfully hot (it was perfect -- nice and sunny!!) the animals were mostly out and about, enjoying the day. A perfect day for the Zoo apart from the fact that it must have been "bring your nursery classes to the Zoo" day -- hundreds of kids and their poor supervisors (I don't know there whether I mean poor as in I felt sorry for them or poor as in they did a lousy job of keeping the kids under control -- bit of both I think!!).
Still, we got some smashing photos -- I'll post the link when Andy uploads them. LOL I've just realised that we're not in any of the photos!! That's what happens when only two of us go out -- we don't ever get pictures of us together (or of each other -- Andy is way more fascinated in getting artsy shots of animals!!!)
(which is just as well, because I'm not overly fond of having my photo taken!!)
I can't believe it. I keep realising that I'm way behind on things -- like my blog, my other journal, writing cards etc. and calling people to tell them we're here.
We've been here for almost 2 1/2 weeks now, and I feel like that time has all been in fast forward. We've gotten Andy a social security number (crucial to him getting everything else in the way of ID), a learner's permit... we got insurance for the car, had it titled over to us, got license plates that say "CUP T LUV"!!!!!! <---- How cool is that?!!?! My license plate in the UK was K877ARF. This is muuuuuuuuuch better!
I'll post a picture once the plates come and we get them on the car.
We've also gotten a credit card for me, (going to get one for Andy once he decides which one he wants!) bought a computer with it to establish credit, been back and forth to the library nearly every day (what an awesome system -- Ione, you would LOVE this library system!!! No charges for reservations on their HUGE collection -- Multimedia is free ... you get it for 5 days and if it's overdue, THEN you PAY!!)
I'm digressing... I get like that every time I think about Columbus Metropolitan Library system -- I start drooling and babbling and get all wound up and overstimulated! I've added the link just above so you can go and have a look at what's in their collection if you want!
We purchased some things to start up our/my new ebay business -- going to call it KittyCatCuts -- going to sell alphabet and other die cutouts in card and fancy paper. Eventually going to branch out and sell more scrapbooking things to the UK but for now we're starting with alphabets. It's not supposed to be a major earner -- just to earn me a little bit on the side so I can have some spending money for scrapbooking. Once we're in the new house (once we sell the UK one!!!) then I plan to have what they call here Crop sessions -- have a bunch of ladies over to scrapbook together and chat etc. I want to do them regularly, either weekly or twice a month and either have classes running too, or I don't know yet. Still thinking about it.
Watch this space!!